I often dream of the apocolypse. I have had these dreams since I was A small child. Moslty I think it is comprised of my own mental preturbation, other than glimpses at the future. It is always sudden, ussually disease related. No one knows what is going on, no matter who I ask. They all have schemes and ideas to escape and survive, not to mention their own opinions on the events taking place. What I find most unsettling is the amount of violence and suffering I see. Usuually caused by my own hands as I try to survive. I watch myself (detached and in the third person ) as I commit horrible acts. All of which my doppelganger seems uneffected by. Occasionally I live, ocasionally I die.

I am in such a stae of panic, when I wake, that I often am physically ill. I wonder if this means I have already begun a rapid ascension into blissful and stupifying insanity. Maybe this is something that can be worked out?

Author: thewhiterabbit

July 14th, 2009 at 11:19 am in Uncategorized

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