I know this might sound crazy!!!
I know this might sound crazy, and I know no one with believe.I’ve been trying to figure this out ever since I can remember, but every time I try to I just get mad, at myself and at God because he wont explain it to me, maybe he has and I just didnt have my eyes and ears open enough. .I really dont even know how to explain it but I’ll try as best I can. Im kinda scared and my hands are starting to shake. I’ve only really ever tried to explain it to one person and even then I dont think they really understood. I’ve been living for 19 years now. When someone says “The world doesn’t revolve around you” what do they mean?Ever since I was little its been me, I dont see myself until I look in a mirror. I see the world and everything that goes on in it and I’m in the center of it all. Like someone is looking through my eyes to see the world. I have crazy dreams, I get weird feelings( Im not saying that I see things). Like I’m here to show someone what everyone else in the world is doing. I’m not saying that I know everyone in the world because I dont, thats impossible. I get scared, so scared that I’m when its my time to do what I’m here to do that I’m gonna be to afraid to do it. I ask God to show me, give me a sign of something, so I know that I’m not losing my mind.I just feel like, I’m the key to it all, That I’m gonna have to do something, be something. Sometimes I just forget about it and go on with my life but when I realize and feel it again. It makes me feel, just feel weird! I dont know what I’m suppose to do……..but I do know that I’m not crazy.I dont go to church but I do believe in God. I’m here for something BIG and I know it.
Author: kitrellckj
May 28th, 2008 at 7:33 am in Philosophy and Religion, Uncategorized
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July 10th, 2008 at 10:16 am
That’s interesting. Have you been to Karen Bishop’s website? http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com
August 9th, 2008 at 12:00 am
Don’t feel weird, theres other people like you in this world. Trust me there is…..
Pray to god with all your heart and ask him to open your eyes, your heart, and give you the wisdom you need to know what you need to do. pray in the name of Jesus Christ.
September 19th, 2008 at 7:33 am
glitterysweet… im sorri i dont want you to think i think God is a big hoax… but i only half believe, n ive been trying to get myself to believe cuz it feels the end is near but i cant… but anyways! i think its ridicolous so just tell someone pray to God n everything will work out, when honestly you don’t know… the world could come to an end tomorrow and what if no God came… we should be preparing ourselves for the fight of our lives not believing a higher power will save us in time because we just don’t know.
December 18th, 2008 at 10:27 pm
Dont feel like your going crazy, these are very normal feelings to not understand whats going on in your life in re: your emotions, etc, what you are feeling as ar as feeling something wierd around you is called discerning the spirits, read in Cor. the bible explains the gifts. second, do not resist God, the feelings you are having about being special are very real. God is calling you to walk in your purpose, dont feel freaked out, just surrender every emotion to Him and you will begin to understand what your feeling, but not until you surrender, you have a great calling on your life, sont resist God, embrass Him!
March 7th, 2009 at 2:09 am
hey just keep believing. u have a big part in the war to come…in some instances it started before we were born. but the roles that our generation is gonna play is gonna b huge. i feel just the same as you do.
March 9th, 2009 at 3:50 am
I completely understand what you mean, I have a lot of those same feelings myself. I have always had this..almost an obsession with the end of the world. Lately, I’ve started to have the most realistic apocalyptic dreams. Its almost a scary feeling, not knowing what it all means. I wonder why God doesnt tell me why I feel this way too but I wonder if hes testing our strength…maybe we have some significant part in the end. He’ll have the strongest army and maybe we’re going through the first stages of our strengthening process. Of course, I’m not positive about this but I always just say to myself; I have the strength in me and in God that I would take on whatever comes headstrong. You just have to beleive and never think you’re “crazy” just because you don’t have answers to what you’re feeling. Just live, be strong, and beleive. Hopefully it will help that you’re not alone too because it surely helped me.