It’s uneasy to type this.
I’ve been having a dream, but to say that’s the end of it is a lie. I’m living this dream.
I have no clue when it started, and it comes and goes with time. It’s always the same. I’m talking to someone, something. Not physical, but more or less i’m talking to something around me. I never see it, but i know it’s there. This thing i’m talking to exists continuously; i continue my conversations with it from each dream to each dream. And these dreams are the more horrid dreams possible. I’m killing humanity. I ask this thing why i have to do what i’m doing, and it responds by telling me that I made the choice, and that it is what i must do. I’m killing humanity by sending fire everywhere, from the sky, from the ground… from everywhere. But i’m only doing it in certain places at a time; i’m not destorying the world, just large areas at a time. I cry as i destroy everything, and i can feel my tears pouring from my face, begging anything omnipotent to give me the power to save them. I’m always met with silence and my abhorrent destruction.
I ask this voice why i’m doing these things, and it always tells me that it’s because of the choice i made. I ask about this choice, and it tells me that i made it and it is done. I ask what i have to do and it only tells me that i must “lead them”. I ask who is “them” and am met with silence. In this dream i’ve done everything possible to stop myself from doing these horrible things. I’ve killed myself, i’ve tried to kill the voice, i’ve not sent fire anywhere. They all die in the end, no matter what i do. If i do nothing, then the people kill each other. If i kill myself, then another person walks from nowhere, and takes my place. I’ve tried killing the voice by directing the fire where i can, and it does nothing.
The worst part is that i’m really doing it. I can’t tell exactly how, but the dreams are more and more real, the voice from the dream will respond if i ask about the fires and such, but won’t respond otherwise. I realize this is about dreams, but this dream is extending to on waking moments. In the middle of the day, I’ll ask why i did such things in my dreams and will be met by the same voice saying “because you chose to lead them”. I know I’m going to do something terrible someday, and I live in fear of it, and all i can wonder is if i can stop myself
What i have learned from the voice scares me greatly. I’m not a figure head, but more like a figure of power or something. I’m not leading everything, but a section. There are two factions and I’m apart of one. Others know which faction they are apart of, and we must fight to decide what happens. I’ve yet to find out what we’re fighting over, and i don’t know when the fighting will begin. All i know is that i must kill lots of people, and most of them will have nothing to do with the fighting. What scares me the most is that I’m actually writing this down for people to see, and I have no idea how to plausibly say I’m not crazy. I’m honestly scared of what’s happening, what I’m “supposed to do”, and set into motion this seems. Someone please help me.
Author: akujin
October 31st, 2007 at 7:31 am in Philosophy and Religion
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December 9th, 2007 at 9:01 pm
Im sorry to say but your talking to a demon. Its not heavenly because god doesnt keep secrets the way the voice describes does. Jesus christ is the only way and the only way to be saved is to except that he died on the cross for your sins and gave us the gift of eternal life that we ourselves could have never reached. so step on get saved. step two tell the voice in the name of jesus christ you command him to leave. Trust me it will work
December 11th, 2007 at 3:44 pm
The apocalypse wont be the end for humanity. It will be the end for most of it but a few will survive. I’ve had visions and dreams of it happening. You seem to have the mark of the beast which is apparent in your dreams. Perhaps it is safe to say you’ll be fighting along side the anti christ or maby you are it. In my visions and dreams im on a hill of debris with a handfull of survivers in a world thats been raped. I see the evil comming from the horizon and they were responasble for the destruction. In my dreams and visions it is us who are the last ones to fight and we do a damn good job. These visions were haunting me and i ignored them thinking i was insane. I started reading and doing research and found a shit load about our future. It is in this research that i found a key thing, I found a astronimical chart of the galaxy and we are about 5-10 years from aligning with the black hole in the middle of the galaxy. If you look at all the relegious symbols from the time before us, you will notice how many are white or bright colors that turn into a dark color in a cirlce patern. This is the depictions of the galaxy. The darkness is a dust cloud that is in the middle and it apears like a black road surrounded by complete white. If you were to look at it with infared vision you would be able to see alot of light threw these clouds. This probably means nothing except when it came apparent with the myan culture. It is known to many that their calander ends on oct 12 2012. But this is the scarry part. That exact date is the date that our sun aligns with the middle of the galaxy, and there is a gravitational shift of the sun which causes planets to wobble a little to realign. This was a profacy by a indican man who they thaught to be a dark god, but now is scientifically proven. Now all of this might seem a little far fetched, but these visions i have and the hype of a doomsday is making me belive this even more. The thing that has me the most is the recent discovery of a 1 day reverse polarity spot on the sun that scientest have discovered. It was s-n instead of n-s and only lasted 1 day (instead of the normal ones which last weeks even months) This is the start of the suns reverse polarity which also makes the earths polarity reverse, and this has been recently discovered as a cycle that happeneds about every 25000 years. 25000 years ago was about the start of man, the start of the myan calander, now 25000 the end of myan calander and the death of man?? It will be a hellish time with no rules, murder, crimes, war and every disaster you can think of will be true. The question i have for you akujin is the choice you make in your dreams to end life, do you belive with all your soul that you will be fighting with the evil, because in my dreams of the future evil only lasts for a decade or so.
January 8th, 2008 at 6:34 pm
Wilkes, you have no idea what your talkin about. It was 780, 000 years ago and the Sun has nothing to do with the Earth changing polarity, it’s the fact that the Earth’s core is slowing down which is resulting in the magnetosphere loosing strength. the Sun changes polarity every 5 years give or take a year or so. The Mayan’s predicted the Earth would align with the black hole in the center of the Galaxy at precisely 11:11pm on the 21st Dec 2012. This also happens to be the exact time the 4th ’sun’ (cycle) of the Mayan calendars ends and as no-one except Mayans know of the extra 14 manuscripts, that the 5th ’sun’ may be printed on, that may exist everyone presumes that 2012 will be the end of the world.
As for Akujin, don’t be scared of the voice. The more scared you are of what it says and makes you do the more power you give it, and the stronger it becomes. I’m not saying ignore it as that sounds like it is impossible. Just try and interprate what he is saying into something positive. And as for finding out what you are fighting for. Don’t worry about it you actually need to fight, if u need to at all. You will find out when the time is right.
May 12th, 2008 at 4:27 pm
You are talking to a demon. Whatever it is you are talking to, it’s not good. Try and ignore it. It won’t work, it will keep bugging you. It’ll harass you. Tell it to be gone in the name of God. And get saved. Jesus doesn’t force you to do anything or hurt anyone. You honestly believe that if you talk to it more, the fire will go away? No. It won’t. It’s torturing you.